Just some of the icons I've made in free time over the past few months ^^

YU YU HAKUSHO
9✖ Hiei
4✖ Kurama
4✖ Botan

Pita-Ten
5✖ Misha & Shia

MUSIC
3✖ Keane

samples



( What I mean is, all I need is, just a little emotion~ )

Yesterday my grandma took me to a furniture store for the first time and I actually got a brand new mattress! My current mattress is in good shape but it is probably over twenty years old -D- (It's good quality though so it's hard to tell.) Since I'm moving in with my grandma in little less than a month she thought it would be a good time to get a new mattress.

Like many things, the way a person sleeps is also a subtle indicator of their personality. Sort of our subconscious body language. Apparently only a small percentage of people sleep on their back like myself in the 'soldier' position. (I've always compared it to sleeping like a mummy...)


Soldier (8%): Lying on your back with both arms pinned to your sides. People who sleep in this position are generally quiet and reserved. They don't like a fuss, but set themselves and others high standards.


Saw 2012 later in the day, the special effects were crazy! I don't see a lot of movies but I love things with lots of suspense and 'end of the world' themes.

It still hasn't really sunk i yet but, I got tickets to go see Utada Hikaru!! >D

Did more practice driving with my mom today. We are always short on money so what we do have typically goes to gas rather than food, or at least not GOOD food.

The reality that I probably won't be able to go to the school of my choice (an art school) is starting to sink in. My family has suggested that I look into 'alternative' schools as well if we are unable to pay for an art school. I've managed to receive quite a few scholarships over the past two years but they are simply a drop in the bucket compared to what I will need for funds.

On a happier note, I may be able to see Utada Hikaru live in Feburary 2010!!~ She is coming to New York City during her "In the Flesh" tour for her second American release 'This is the One.' That reality has not set in either, but probably won't until it's January XD

I've never been to a solo artist concert before but apparently The Fillmore is not to far from my Uncle's apartment so things are looking pretty optimistic :) The ticket pre-sale began two days ago, so I'm going to try and purchase them tomorrow.

and LOL, this has been stuck in my head for two days now.

 Some of the music I'm listening to right now: 

paramore ▼ Brand New Eyes
JAY'ED ▼ Musication
Brown Eyed Girls ▼ Sign
KEANE ▼ Live Recordings: European Tour 2008 
Big Bang ▼ Koe wo Kikasete 
Spontania ▼ 同じ空みつめてるあなたに
KAT-TUN ▼ Break the Records: By You & For You
Lady GaGa ▼ Bad Romance, Dance in the Dark
Calvin Harris ▼ Ready for the Weekend
Third Eye Blind ▼ Ursa Minor

A little late but, 



I present to you: iPumpkin! 

Being a graphic design student I figured it was appropriate to carve the Apple logo into one of the extra pumpkins we had lying around. Yes, I am that much of a geek.

Getting the H1N1 shot at school tomorrow. So far only one of my sisters has gotten it but my college is offering to give the vaccine free to students between the ages of 19-24. Overall I am thankful to be in a generally good state of health. Although my immune system is probably not very strong, I contribute most of my good health to consistent and almost obsessive hand washing and avoiding poor health situations in general (i.e. doctors office, sick people) you get the idea. The college I attend is somewhat secluded compared to regular schools but there have supposably been nineteen reported cases of the H1N1 virus already. Most of my class sizes have dropped by half, however there are many other colds and viruses going around too.

Things have been moving by in a blur lately. Time sure flies when you have tons of work to do. It's already November and in New York that means things are about to get really, really, really cold. I've been living with my aunt and uncle for about a year and a half now and unfortunately over time the condition of me staying with them has eroded. During the summer of 2008 I moved into my own bedroom in my aunt and uncle's house to escape the chaos and trauma that I endured while staying with my mother. Now that I actually live away from my mom our relationship is somewhat stable, at least more so than it used to be.

After living with my aunt for a few months I began to realize the reality of the new situation I had stepped into, that is I began to notice things previously overlooked by my childhood self. They began to treat me like I was a child, specifically their child. My aunt and uncle never had any kids of their own so it seemed possible to me that they might view me in this way. Things began to get worse. Not only did view and treat me as a child but they started to order me around in an authoritarian type style. So over the past few months I have been walking on eggshells trying to maintain peace, which has meant just becoming a total isolationist. It started from speaking briefly to now saying nothing at all. Ironically, two of my uncle's family members were previously in the same situation (living with a&u while attending college) and according to other family members were never treated this way. 

As much as I would enjoy to share my thoughts and opinions with my aunt and uncle it is a lose - lose situation, for every comment I do make there is a constant tension between statements that however insignificant would find something to criticize. Because of this, the few statements I do make are short, to-the-point, and close ended. They are people who believe they are always right. Too stubborn to accept any help, even when it is offered by an even more capable person including myself. Being a person who does not talk about their problems to begin with doesn't really help. 

I love my aunt and uncle but I know it is greatly in my best interest to leave as soon as possible. Because of this, my grandma has offered to let me stay with her until I transfer to another college in a few months. Now I only have until winter break (December 8th) until I can finally be free of the insanity.

*sigh*

Other than that things are going very well though : )

Side note: sorry for the cheesy title, it comes from the song "Jackson's Last Stand" by Ou Est Le Swimming Pool